vent.

when my mind is going crazy.


I must release the tension



Otherwise insanity will overwhelm me.

vent about what you ask?
sorry but that is not completely going to get answered for risk of revealing my true feelings.


you see. i was told something. this something that was said was said in a matter of seconds. but its been on my mind for days.

WHY?

thats the biggest question.

this shouldnt bother me. and the other half should not spike my interest. If i was a kind human being i would let it go and not let my mind linger. but i guess i am not a kind human.

i know what i should do. but my heart is conflicting against the guidlines of life.
I dont want to cause anyone pain. so i must turn away.

but i cant.

not after i know what i know. Or do I even have my facts straight?

i want to know the truth.

but im scared of it.

the scariest part is that i cant decide what i want the truth to be.

and what if since i might have figured it out the truth has change? and thats when i really wanted it to remain the same.

"it will all end wonderfully. and if it is not wonderful, it is not the end."

thats my 2 cents for today.

Au revior

from a conflicted heart