Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Emotional Reminiscing



I was hanging out with my dear old friend Madi today. I don’t know why but I got the urge to tell her something that I had done in Jr. High. After she lectured me for a bit I calmed her down and I was able to go home.

Later that night I was having a jolly night with Madi, Kenzie, Taylor and Cadee.

Madi had me tell them the information that i had shared with her earlier.

To be honest, I was scared to.

I knew Kenzie would react the exact same way that Madi did. Or at least I thought.

After mustering much courage I softly stated "I have *)_ myself.

Looking at Kenzie she was appalled and confused. I stared at her waiting for her to bombard me with questions to which I hardly had an answer.

But something entirely different came about. She began to cry. Now I was more confused than ever! Why on earth would she be crying about something I had done to myself??

I asked her this and she turned and asked when I had committed this. I told her it was in Jr. High, and that was when the real tears began trailing her  face. I was so concerned and didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t take back what I said but I didn’t want this to cause her so much pain.

She softly told me how guilty she felt knowing that I had done this while I was her friend. She was torn by the fact that it was now in her past and there was nothing she could do to change the events that came about.

When she shared a secret she had. The tears emerged and fell from my eyes too. I believed what I was hearing. And that was the worst part. I knew it was going on, but to hear it, it was the worst thing. We sat there and held each other, for we both knew there was nothing we could do to change what had happened and honestly I didn’t want to.

After me and Kenzie had let go Madi came over to give me a hug! She lay in my lap like a quiet lap dog and we just sat there. I knew she was there for me in that instant. It meant a lot to know she cared about me.

What had happened made us into who we are today and the friends we are today.

Kenzie and Madi you guys are the most amazing friends. Thank you for caring about me so much to tell me the truth. I love that we are the greatest of friends. You guys have shaped me to be who I am today and I am the luckiest person to call you guys my best friends. You guys have been with me through everything and have been such great examples to me my whole life. I don’t care what people say about high school friends. We will be friends for eve_! Raise our kids together and go on trips together! I feel like we are seriously dating sometimes. haha cause we just have no men, just each other. But anyone reading this, don’t get the wrong impression, we are very much into men. Men just don’t seem to be into us. haha

Never regret your past because it made you who you are today.



I am always so proud to say you guys are my best friends. Love and care about you guys so much. You both are the most amazing people I know. So lucky I was born when I was so I would be adopted into your friendship.

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