Half crazy? Crazy? Or completely insane??

I stared at my computer that Thursday afternoon deciding whether or not I wanted to pick my death date. My mom was encouraging me that I could do it! I knew I could, I knew I wouldn’t die if I did the right training... i just didnt know exactly what i was getting into.

So I did it, before I could change my mind, I chose October 13, 2012 to be either the date that I truly live, or the day I die.

That is the day I plan to run my first marathon. I knew I could do it! I’ve done a triathlon out of the blue, it was hard but I survived.

 

It’s been my goal to do one ever since before I can remember, never once did I imagine it would be this soon, and with this little of training!

There was 7 weeks until the big day so I decided to go straight to work.

That night my mom and I went to the gym, I ran 2 miles and that’s when I realized how stupid I was! I thought to myself ‘you can't do this' 'you can hardly run 2 miles' 'this is not for you'. But I had already paid and agreed.

The next day I went out and ran 8 miles. The most I have ever run. I said to me, 'if you can pull 8 miles out of your butt, you can run a marathon with training'.

I ran the 8 miles fine, with a little sore muscles the next day, but I did it. I knew I could do this marathon.

I ran small distances every day the next week.

On Saturday morning I volunteered at a half marathon called "only half crazy" seeing all the people that were running I once again got discouraged. They were all so fit and prepared, and I wasn't and I was running twice the distance they were!

That night my father and I went out for my first really long run. We planned a route that would be 12 miles. I had planned to finish in 2 hours and 20 minutes. Seeing as I didn’t think I could run at a decent pace for that long. When we got to seven miles I told my dad I wanted to tack on another mile and just make it a half. We did and I ended up running a half marathon in 2 hours and 13 minutes! That’s less than I thought it would take me to run less! I was so happy! And that is when I truly knew I could do it. It just takes mind power. And of course for the marathon I will need to train greatly, but I can do it!

So that is what I am, completely insane. I am training for a marathon in 7 weeks.

 

To those who doubt, ill prove you wrong. You have no idea how fast I am able to rise from the ashes.

How's this for adventure?

It was the last night of camp and Rachel and I were determined it would go out with a bang!

Me, Rachel and a couple boys decided to go skinny dipping around 12:30. We had planned where the opposite sexes would be, seeing that going together would be highly inappropriate.
The boys were scheduled to go to the cove, me and Rachel claimed the dock.

Rachel and I walked down to the dock fully clothed. We undressed under our towells and were completely nude under them when Rachel became very concerned that some other human was among us. We looked around when we saw some one on the dock walking towards us. We could tell they had no clothing on for you could see the outline of their naked body.

Finally the unkown person spoke "have you guys gotten in yet?" it asked. Alarm came over me and Rachel, for the voice we heard, was a boys voice!! Our heads snap up to expose our faces and Nick saw that we were girls. He panicked and jumped in the lake hoping to not expose himself.

Once he was in the water he made sure we didnt see anything-which I didn't, then went on to beg us to get in. I would have never gotten in the water naked with another boy!

As we walked off the dock we came across Zach Roberts who was skinny dipping with Nick but was hiding when the whole encounter happened.



Rachel and I went away from the dock so that when we stripped our towells off they would not see. We began to walk into the water when I started peeing. I could not hold it so i threw my towell off me because I did not want to get pee on it. So there I stood, completely nude and vulnerable in front of Rachel. I began to crawl into the water cause I felt more secure the closer I was to the ground. Rachel screamed at me "Natalie! There's someone coming!" I quickly got balled up to not expose myself completely. It was my cousin, Erica, who I had gone skinny dipping with 2 days previously. She was trying to tell us something but we couldnt hear her over the crashing sounds of that waves (there was a big storm that night) so we told her to leave.

After she was gone Rachel finally got in with me and we swam around for a while. Once we got out we started a mad search for our towells! We could not remember where we threw them and the shore looked the same so we weren't sure where we got in. Finally I found mine and Rachel found hers a few minutes later. We went up to camp, hung out for a bit then went to bed, knowing that camp had ended with an explosion!

The next morning everyone knew!! That's what happens when Zach Roberts knows, he tells everyone!

I was able to talk to Erica about what happened. She shared that her and Stanford were enjoying the lovely night when they look over to see naked bodies on the beach! She saw us girls and the boys that had kicked us off the dock. She was only coming down to warn us that there was boys only a little ways away from us, Not knowing that we had already bumped into their nakedness.

It was a pretty great way to end my summer at Bear Lake. Every single detail of things that went wrong made the night so great. Loved it!

Glad it happened, Glad its over

As I mentioned in my most recent post, I will be working at Bear Lake Aquatics Base for the next 5 weeks.

Up at the camp I met a great guy named Jake Johnson. We kind of hit it off from the start. We just started to like each other and didn't really question it. The first week we hung out a lot and it was really fun. I felt pretty comfortable with him but I wasn't exactly myself for some reason.

The next week I went to girl’s camp. We kept in touch when I was gone and I returned back to camp on that Saturday. That night we watched a movie and well, what I had expected to happen, happened. I gave him my first kiss. We kissed for a while but I wasn't thoroughly enjoying it because it was my first time and it felt weird. After a while I got used to it though. Ha-ha.

The following Tuesday he started acting weird and I just acted kind of normal but didn't hang out with him a lot. Finally on Friday I confronted him about what was going through his head and he expressed that this was only a camp relationship. I was really sad and hurt but life went on.

The next week I found out all the things he had been telling the other staff members about what happened between us and I was completely upset. I can't believe that he actually had me fooled into thinking that he cared about me, when in reality I was a huge joke to him.

 I’m not happy that I fell for such a disguised jerk, but in a way I am grateful that I did because it taught me a lot.

I know that what happened between us was necessary for me and that it was crucial for it to end.

Like I said, glad it happened, glad it’s over!